today, i'm sitting here at the uni computer, during the arts orientation day. it's 12.27pm, the temperature outside is 28 degrees celcius.

i had a realisation today that i am going to die alone. i don't understand what it is that separates me from everyone else, what makes me unlikable. i'm going to die alone. yes, i'm only 17, but if i don't talk to anyone now, how am i going to learn to talk to people later in life.

i don't know why is it that i find it difficult to talk. communication has always been difficult. maybe it's because i have a bossy sister, maybe pushy parents who hate not getting their own way. maybe it's the fact that i was moved to a new school in grade 1, skipping prep. prep is the vital socialising grade. it that is skipped, then you have an individual who is screwed for life. that's why it's illegal to skip it now.

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