fuck

describes my mood perfectly right now. about an hour and a half ago i was really excited and boysterous, because i had my cd player on 35 and cranking stiff upper lip. it's 6.35 right now. at 5.30 i was supposed to be at the eastern shore action indoor sports centre, but i don't have a a fucking clue where that is. i headed where i thought it was and was there by 5pm but obviously it wasn't where i thought it was so i jumped back on a bus and headed to eastlands shopping centre from where i proceeded to walk into bellerive - not realiseiing how far away from each other they actually are. so i'm walking along the highway and 5.30 comes around, i think fuck it, they probably woudln't hire me anyway, and i hate being late anyway, so i turned around and walked back to eastlands and hung around there for an hour. then i got on a bus and came back into hobart, and took the scenic route to university i.e. right around sandy bay and along the full length of churchill avenue. so here i am, it's 6.38pm and i'm writing my fisrt blog entry for today. got kiss unplugged in my earphones http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5c9Y0xyOFM&mode=related&search= and you know i really do. don' take the lyrics literally though i just like the song. now listening to firehouse 1974 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyHT5EP0OS4&mode=related&search= rough recording but kick ass song. learnt shock me a few days ago, gonna listen to that next.

oh fuck i feel like such shit right now. emailed heaps with cynthia today : nothing much achieved. haven't a clue as to what to do with my life feeling so down right now. fuck i love this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9ZGlk52Bgg describes my mood and attitude perfectly. same song different video under the links on the right hand side of page. don't think it's lars behind the drums though, can't tell. never seen lars with beard before. fuck i want to die right now going down hill big time. maybe go see if bars open and go sit there for hrs drinking my life away like i was warned not to do. can't help feeling like a complete fuck head right now. i shoudl stop it when i get really energetic because i end up slumped in this black that i'm in now.

went into radio station today - fucked up a bit but covered it really well. see, i'm learning for once in my life. went busabout today as well - where you get on the first bus you see and travel on it till it stops. then get off and catch the next bus that coems along.

metallica rules - not in mood for kiss aerosmith or ac/dc right now - need black music for black mood. talk to you all again later gonna go sit and slash