Big scary things are happening

ok so in 2007 so far my grandfather has died, i was very very close to him and he was more of a father to me than my real father, and the motherfucker who called himself my dad finally moved out, or was kicked out. he blew his chance. i've started drinking a hell of a lot recently, so much so that i usually have 3 or 4 glasses of wine when i get home of an evening plus a few before breakfast. meagan introduced me to the delights of the cocktail party on saturday so now we're in the process of planning a decent one. maybe with some hot tub involved? who knows. anyway, so i'm an alcoholic. great. fucking great.