i hate living here. i'd rather be in perth right now where laus is. i love you, nobody means as much to me as you do, and nobody ever will. i'm sorry for letting you down and makign you feel bad, you know i wouldn't ever do it on purpose but sometimes i just open my mouth and say things i don't want to say or thigns that hurt. i don't mean to hurt you, ever. i'm coming over early. i can't wait to get away from work. i can survive on $2000 for a little while, especially if i hit the ground running with working and hosue hunting. i could have my arms around you right now looking into your eyes and telling you how much i love you. but right now all i can do is tell you, we can't see each other face to face and smell and taste one another. it'll be ok baby. i love you