i just want to scream but i can't. i want to make everybody just as miserable as me

Fade to black

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this cant be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now hes gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

i feel realyl miserable today. ran into 2 friends from high school and they wanted to have lunch together but didn't even consider asking whether i wanted to. fuckers, i'll add them to the lsit.

i just thought you should all know, if you expect to be liked and respected and be treated nicely in life, you should show some resepct and treat others with the kind of behaviour you expect to receive in return. seems not enough of you take this to heart, so im telling you all now, and don't come bitching to me if you're an asshole and are wondering why no one likes you.

Fuck i can't stand this!!!!!!!!!!!

Email

If any of you are intent on emailing me, do it to space_ace@golivewire.com because i won't be able to access my hotmail for a while now.

kiss - vh1 rock honours - deuce

jess, i'm sorry for giving you so much shit recently. i never really understood how much it hurts to see someone close to you going down hill. a friend of mine said exactly the same thing to me as i said to you, so i have an appreciation now of what you went through. :I

Last post i mentioned how no one had sent me any emails or messages. this was today:

SO i got a record 11 messages in my box at once. wow i feel so special. i haven't been on for a few days, mainly cause i was working thursday and friday all day then i went out yesterday and so didn't have any time for hte net. actually most of htose messages in the picture are spam and i didn't bother to read them. was talking with a guy with the username lukerules12 and we were just talking about stuff. he was in a relationship with a friend of mine nad there was some sort of nasty falling out so i was helping him over htat.

Ooooh - yesterday i bought KISS rockin' the nation live 2004. if you wanna save yourself $35, dont' buy this contrived piece of shit. not only are they using backing tapes (i.e. paul singing when paul is nowhere near the microphone), but tommy is still ripping off ace's stage moves and solo's note for note. next thing you know he'll be singing lead vocals on shock me and putting in a smoke solo and shooting rockets from his guitar. Tommy thayer was actually kiss's road manager circa 1996, and had been in a few kiss tribute bands before that, so he was perfect to replace ace on lead guitar.

ooh and another thing i spotted - during detroit rock city, gene reaches over been tommy's legs and tweeks him on the balls. read into that what you will.

Anyway, only emmy is on the msn right now and she doesn't like taling to me anyway. writing shae another letter. jessica got my recent one and i think we're all utterly confused.