fuck it you people are impossible to deal with. i don't know why i even bothered to try in the first place.

had a shit day today, again. hmmm if all days are shit does that make shit normal and normal for me super shit for you? parents away for next few days so got the house to myself. went on mission last night - that went ok i.e. didn't get busted. learned about new sabotage technique today, this time for computers. take safety matches and file the heads down until you've got a nice 1/2 teaspoon ful of red powder. take a floppy disk, open it, spread a thin layer of nail polish remover on the magnetic bit then sprinkle thickly the match dust ontop of that. recclose the disk and give it to the local ass hole to stick in his computer. when computer tries to read the disk it'll spark and blow his computer up nicely. got the mother of all migranes right now - should be sleeping but cna't because head hurts more when horizontle. want ot cut my head arteries open to releive the pressure but that won't do much long term good. had my first ever cyberpillowfight today. shae is a fun person to be around, although she's a WCE supporter and i'm a sydney supporter which causes a little friendly rivalry between us. i think WCE are on their way to play adelaide in the second preliminary final this year, WC are palying the bulldogs tonight and the winner goes through to play adelaide. hmmmm i need to go get a drink, maybe theres some vodka stashed someone aroudn the house i haven't found yet. idk. we''ll see. Wont call tomorrow cause you won't be home. the tide is turning

I should have told you earlier, this is my third edit to the post as well: i don't care for bullshitters and liars. I expect the truth, the whoel truth and nothing but the truth. If you're not prepared to give me the 100% truth then you know what to do. I have given you 100% with everything so far. so i expect the same in return.

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

sometimes in life shit happens, but you've just got to put it behind you and deal with it. You can't change what happened yesterday, so why should you worry about it? Focus on later today, and tomorrow, instead of yesterday.

04.Monster Of Rock.-.Fade To Black

feelin' kinda fuzzy today. it ain't easy livin like a gypsy tell ya honey how i feel/ i been dreamin floatin' down the stream and loosin sense of all thats real/whole earth lover sleepin' undercover, c'mon tell me where you bin, you've been fadin' always out paradin' keep in touch with mama kin. it ain't easy living like you wanna so hard to find peace of mind. way i see it gotta say shit and dont' forget to drop me a line. love that song. know what else is a great song? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7SYtuHUP3s totally wired hahaha i feel really screwed up but i don't care

hey i just had an idea

fuck i just had an idea: put a verse and chorus together to get:

i was born to play in a rock roll band
couldn't see myself getting anywhere else
Just feel free to throw me a line
we're all goin' to hell

Chorus: and if your ears ain't ringing
it ain't up loud enough
if your ears aren't ringin
then its not rock n' roll

fuck

describes my mood perfectly right now. about an hour and a half ago i was really excited and boysterous, because i had my cd player on 35 and cranking stiff upper lip. it's 6.35 right now. at 5.30 i was supposed to be at the eastern shore action indoor sports centre, but i don't have a a fucking clue where that is. i headed where i thought it was and was there by 5pm but obviously it wasn't where i thought it was so i jumped back on a bus and headed to eastlands shopping centre from where i proceeded to walk into bellerive - not realiseiing how far away from each other they actually are. so i'm walking along the highway and 5.30 comes around, i think fuck it, they probably woudln't hire me anyway, and i hate being late anyway, so i turned around and walked back to eastlands and hung around there for an hour. then i got on a bus and came back into hobart, and took the scenic route to university i.e. right around sandy bay and along the full length of churchill avenue. so here i am, it's 6.38pm and i'm writing my fisrt blog entry for today. got kiss unplugged in my earphones http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5c9Y0xyOFM&mode=related&search= and you know i really do. don' take the lyrics literally though i just like the song. now listening to firehouse 1974 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyHT5EP0OS4&mode=related&search= rough recording but kick ass song. learnt shock me a few days ago, gonna listen to that next.

oh fuck i feel like such shit right now. emailed heaps with cynthia today : nothing much achieved. haven't a clue as to what to do with my life feeling so down right now. fuck i love this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9ZGlk52Bgg describes my mood and attitude perfectly. same song different video under the links on the right hand side of page. don't think it's lars behind the drums though, can't tell. never seen lars with beard before. fuck i want to die right now going down hill big time. maybe go see if bars open and go sit there for hrs drinking my life away like i was warned not to do. can't help feeling like a complete fuck head right now. i shoudl stop it when i get really energetic because i end up slumped in this black that i'm in now.

went into radio station today - fucked up a bit but covered it really well. see, i'm learning for once in my life. went busabout today as well - where you get on the first bus you see and travel on it till it stops. then get off and catch the next bus that coems along.

metallica rules - not in mood for kiss aerosmith or ac/dc right now - need black music for black mood. talk to you all again later gonna go sit and slash

something going on + more

some strange things are happening over there in colcord at the moment. Jess moved out of home then moved back in and there are other things going on that i have no idea about, and if i don't know about i can't help or fix the problems. yeah, they're crazy crazy crazy crazy nights. if life is a radio turn up to 10. i look at you and my blood boils hot, i feel it start to rise. strange things goin' on hell i could write something about that but i haven't a clue whats going on, like i said. completely apathetic as to everything. msn'd with cynthia the other day and we talked for ages about everything. Jess i'm sorry if you think i've gone behind your back but i haven't and i've only been trying to do good. :) Ok i'll call on sunday 11am my time which is saturday night your time and we can discuss it then. if you want me to be able to help at all you have to explain what's going on.

notice all the changes that have gone on my page recently? I've actually got a heading banner now, but i can't figure out where in the script it needs to go to get it up in the heading spot. I've also just finished taking all the videos and moving them from the posts to under where the links are. it's like a greatest hits of rock n' roll and metal. i got a fever aching in my heart, you make me shiver and shake. eat it like a piece of cake. always interesting to throw in a line from whatever song i'm listening to.

Jess, please don't be upset with me. i'm not upset with you despite what you might think. i can't stand everything much longer. so much noise and fuzz around me is just blurring all that i thought i knew about you me and the world. I still love you, remember it, and please smile

It's Showtime

Ok, this morning I'm back at university, but don't want to go any lectures because they're boring as fuck and here is more interesting. Had an idea that once i get the band together and we start performing, we could utalise pyrotechnics and explosives to make people love us. Already got the name's of some good firebreathers to come on stage at some time or another and do their thing, so i've been looking into homemade fireworks on totse.com. http://www.totse.com/en/bad_ideas/ka_fucking_boom/homemadefireba174522.html

(Tom Snyder) - "but you're like a ... spaceman, right?"
(Ace Frehley) - "no actually, i'm a plumber"

http://www.totse.com/en/bad_ideas/ka_fucking_boom/166765.html KAfuckingBOOM!

Lick it up, lick it up, ooooooh oh ohhhhhhh it's a crazy crazy crazy crazy nights. like i said, kaboom. although whereever we would be playing it would be up to the club owner as to the degrees in which we could use pyrotechnics. God gave rock n' roll to you, gave rock n' roll to you, put it in your soul for you. when the nights begun and you want some fun, think you're gonna find it? if you don't feel good, theres a way you could, don't sit there broken hearted. Listen to KISS and you'll understand life as it's supposed to be. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QE2cEvTEs04 .

Learnt a new song yesterday, guess who it's by? Shock Me, by Kiss. Chords are D AA ADA AAA GG DGDGD GGGGAA for the verse and for the chorus A G D C. Song I'm listening to right now: Metallica, Master of Puppets, live at the BDO sydney 2004. Want to learn: Metallica, Fade to black, becauses an awesome song and has no really fast parts, unlike "one" which i'm learning at the moment and can't play because i need a new neck that goes uup to 25 frets, and my strat only goes up to 21.

none of my livewire friends have been on today. chatted with shae yesterday - she's really nice and one of the few people in the world who actually gives a shit about me. like to meet her one day but i can't see it happening any time soon. The world would be a much better place if there were more of her and less of me.

hmmm i think that's all for right now. damn metallica rules!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-BcsMUljxRA